TIRED....

Wow, never thought I'd say it....but this chick is out of the game! I've never been so over dating and men in my life. What's it all for anyway? All you get is a big headache and a massive heartache. Overrated is what I call it! I've got nothing to show for the years of dating except a over priced tooth brush (which I'd never bought on my own and i have to say I love it) and an empty vase that i once got a flower in. After years of dating that's it? That's all I get? What a jip!

Frankly I just don't have the steam in me. Dating is more than ruff it should be illegal! It causes too much pain and suffering. And you have not one thing to show for it but a bunch of walls that get bigger and bigger as you get older. No one wants a 34 year old woman who is on the chunky side of life. I'm too old to have children and too young to be a spinster. So I'm the cat lady. Which is something i don't fear because I'm a wonderful cat Mama.

Justin wants to be friends, ok. Friendship I can deal with. Emotions and feelings....nope I just can't deal with that. I'm becoming a unfeeling bitch. And it's due time! My entire life I've done for others, I've listened to their problems, I've supported them, I've been the friend, I've been the dependable one. I've been the one they tell it all to and then they run off with someone else. Well no more! Now it's all about me and how I feel and what I want! I'm sick of the old....Melanie is nice and all but she's not the one for me.

Melanie is about to take her life back and become the best she's ever been.

WOULDN'T YOU KNOW IT....

Yeah so for the masses....I've officially been dumped. Seems to be that I'm too much of a good person. I was dumped because I'm too bubbly and I talk too much. He says we are too different because he's so laid back and mellow. This is another man who has dumped me because I'm too good of a person. He claims he has no feelings for me what so ever. Good to know, esp. since he seemed to be quite interested at the get go. Then three months in.....we aren't a good fit and he doesn't see anything long term happening with us. Good to know esp. since not that long ago he was planning on spending the summer with me. This is his loss and he has no clue what he's given up.

WHY IS IT.....

Why is it that dating is so tuff? Why is it that men don't seem to be interested in a nice girl? Why is it that you have to be so guarded? Why is it that you can't fully open up to someone for fear that they will dump you if you are too you?

These are some of the many things floating through my head. Why does it all have to be so damn complicated? Why can't it just be....I like you, you like me, lets go out? I was never a girl that guys dated in high school and college because I was too fat. Yeah lets face it...guys don't like big girls. then i got out and I was every ones friend, and that sucks even more. Now in my late 20's and 30's I'm finally meeting men that like curvy girls and all I get is the runaround!! I get the you're sooo wonderful but I just can't be with you. What the hell is that??

My boyfriend now....I really like him. But he's guarded, as am I. But most of the time I just don't understand. Why can't we just spend time together? We've talked about all kinds of things, we've been together for about three months. So why do i always feel like I'm doing something wrong? Feeling something wrong? I really like him and I don't want to scare him off so I keep allot of things in. For fear if I told him how much I liked him he'd run off to the hills.

Why can't it just be simple. Since when is it that men don't like a good girl? What is the issue here? I'm not dramatic, I'm low maintenance, I can cook, I'm affectionate, I'm not demanding, I'm fun as hell.

Don't get me wrong, my boyfriend and I have so much fun together. He makes me laugh like I've never laughed before. I guess I just don't understand why he feels he's no good for me. Why is it so hard to just be with me?

WHAT ON EARTH HAVE I BEEN UP TO?

Ok, so as we have seen I've been a lazy goose and I've not posted any blogs and neither has Scarlett. She has been so busy keeping an eye on everyone in the building lately and playing hostess that she has had no time at all to blog.

I've been stressed out at work and life was sucking for a few days. But like those big ass thunderstorms last week that has passed and I'm feeling much better emotionally. Scarlett and I have started working out again, not as much as we should but hey every little bit counts right? She and I have also started reading a new book in the Nice Girls series. So that has kept us busy at night too!

On Thursday, Scarlett was busy keeping tabs on the guy that lived next door (he's moved out) and she was sitting in the screen door with her eyes peeled on him at all times! And she would look every direction he'd go. I'm not sure if in her mind it was like "look Mama! It's an action movie!" or what but it sure was funny to watch her expressions with every load he took by the front door! She also had a bit of a heart attack last week when the ambulance went by our complex with it's lights and sirens going....she got so freaked out that she hid behind me and popped her head out from behind my legs with her Mr. Ferley eyes going wild!

Last week my parents came down and took me out for a nice birthday dinner and mom and dad bought me a new house plant. I sure do like having something green in the house. It adds some nice character to a room! I've named her Betsy and I think Scarlett would love to nip at the leaves but I've got it out of sight out of mind....I hope :)

Other than that things have been pretty good. I am going to a rock concert this week and I'll be busy as all get out at work. Thank god people still need medical help! It's one of the few places to work where there are actual jobs! Well people I hope you have enjoyed the beginning of May as much as I have! Let's have a wonderful spring!!

OMG....DISHES!!

Ok, so for those of you who know me well you know how I can get about cleaning and about dishes in particular! Well anal clean Melanie has met her boyfriend and his son and his brother! Lol! Three men living together....need I say more? I let it go as long as I could but last night I tackled the dishes!! And oh how I felt better! I've been eyeing a pan over there that has sat on the stove for way too long and last night my inner anal clean freak won! Lol!! Justin has told me before that he's not going to let me clean is house, but damn, I'm just gonna do it! I understand that with a child it's hard sometimes and he's busy with work and he's been very tired lately, so I just did it on my own! And I told him last night that I'm just going to do dishes twice a week! And I hear from the living room his brother go...."I don't have a problem with that!" I told Justin he has gained a girlfriend and his brother has gained a maid! Ha ha!

Dishes are a bit of a pet peeve for me. They gotta be done! When I sat down last night with the guys to watch a movie I had accomplished just that! All dishes in the house were done! Koby at one point goes "Melanie, you can leave those dishes for dad to do later, you can come play a game with me now" insert cute five year old smile here. And I told him, "well we can play in a little bit, I'm going to do dishes now so dad can enjoy his day tomorrow." It's little things like that that I think are important. I wanted to help and I did. It may of been just dishes but I made Justin's day a bit better just by doing that simple thing.

I'm not as bad as Monk, but I do like my dishes clean and put away. Or at least clean and in the rack! Lol, that's where most of mine are!

Another thing that surprised me, I took over the movie All About Steve (one of my favorites) and we watched it and the guys really seemed to like it! They actually laughed! So score one for the lady! Well I guess I should get my butt in gear! I've got some dish cloths to make for a wedding present!

Take care my darlings :)

HELLO ALL!

So much has been happening in my little world. Walking is taking over and bowling is almost over. I've finished another book series, that makes the third book series I've finished and that makes me pretty happy! Since reading and me have our times, lol. I've got to say the Erin McCarthy books were a super fun read! Lots of laughing and cold showers were had! Ha ha! The new series I've started is called the Nice Girls books, so far they are a fun read, I've just had no time to read. Either I'm out and about or staying up too late or sleeping! Lol!! Soon it will be pool weather and I love to read while at the pool!

Scarlett is doing just fine! The other day she got a bit too close to the outside for my taste. She got a yelling and a foot to the nose! And she knew she had done wrong! No worries people, she and I made up real quick and she is laying in the sunlight as we speak watching the squirrels outside!

I trust everyone had a wonderful Easter weekend!! I had a good time catching up with family and spending time with my parents and a wonderful corgi "Sister". It's starting to be flea and tick season, so make sure to put medicine on you're four footers! Lizzy can't sleep with me now till fall. I heard her walking around last night on the hard wood floors in my bedroom and I heard her go down the stairs to my dad. Ticks do NOT belong in my bed! No matter how much I love that little dog!

Well I need to be getting on with my day! Have a lovely day and enjoy the rest of it!

XOXO

SCARLETT'S BLOG

Happy Saturday humans! So it is a wet one out there today. Mama has been to mail out bills and off to the store today. She is getting lil smokies ready as we speak for the game. It's been March Madness all over the place here. Ever since KSU got in to the playoffs! Mama and Justin have been watching lots of basketball and that means I have too. I mostly nap during it unless it's too stressful for Mama. Like the other night when it went into two overtimes....Mama couldn't even stay in the room with me she kept going off in the kitchen or bathroom because she said she just couldn't watch with how close it was. Then after the game when they won we were in the bedroom getting ready to snuggle in for the night and we could hear people chanting and yelling and there were fireworks going off and all. What a crazy night! Mama says it's the first time in 22 years that KSU has advanced like this. Wow!

Now let me tell you about a little boy I've met this week. His name is Koby and he is Justin's son. He is a nice kid, esp. when he drops his food on the floor! I really liked that part of our first meeting. He kept to himself, but I sure did check him out....from afar at first and then I got up the courage to go and sniff him. He smells of child, which isn't something I'm really used to, but he didn't chase me or pull my fur so I'm ok with him! And I have to say I love to see the smile that Mama gets when she's around Justin. And he is good to me too! He likes to talk to me and ask me how I'm doing. Awww. I like humans who know I'm in the room!

Well I need to get on my way here, Mama has just painted her nails purple and the smell is awful! Lol!! Keep dry humans!