MY HOW TIME HAS PASSED....

OK, so I've been more than a little bummy about getting blogs done. And I'd like to say that it's been because I'm SOOOOO busy, lol! Well it's because I'm so lazy. ;) I've been pretty very lazy, I won't deny that at all!

I feel that for the first time in a very long time I'm O.K. I've had lots of ups and downs these past few years. All in the heart department. And after the 100th time (ok more like 30th time) you get tired of picking yourself up and dusting yourself off and going back out there. I honestly just don't have the umph to do it anymore. Men have sucked the breath out of me when it comes to falling in love and maybe one day living happily ever after. In my opinion if that is what you are waiting for ladies then I suggest that you get a nice book and a comfy chair to sit in because it's not going to happen.

I'm 35, it doesn't get better. I've finally come to the realization that love and marriage is not in the books for me and I'm totally OK with that. I'm not fooling myself. I'm not getting any younger (although the men seem to be acting more like teenagers than real men). And the men lets just touch on that for a moment. None of them know what they want, or what they feel and all they can commit to is a text message. What the hell is that about??

Call me old fashioned but damn, what is wrong with people nowadays?? We are growing up with a generation that can't even communicate! No one can call they have to text, no one can have a date they want to hangout, no one can commit because they are afraid. So it's a generation of idiots growing up around us. Put all the crap away and just be real for a moment! Why is it wrong to go out and get to know someone? Why is everyone so quick to give a phone number out or their address? Why can't you go to dinner and talk for ever and get to know each other? Why does it have to go from text to sex? And look at the roll models for kids today....I guess who can you blame? We are a generation of idiots! That's my frank opinion.

I guess in a way some people may think that I waisted my time. I'm not married, I have no children and what have i done with my life? Well I worked my ass off. And thanks to this lovely economy I have pretty much nothing to show for it. Watch out here sits a perfectly good 35 year old woman all by herself, lol! The up note for that is the fact that I can do what i want when I want and if I want to drink a bottle of wine in the dark I can do so....HA HA!!

There was a short period of time in my life where I though things would be quite different and then I got dumped. From all my years of dating I have battle scars (mainly on my heart) and I have learned the hard lesson that you can truly trust no one but yourself.

For the first time in a very long time I'm really O.K. I've been single for over a year now and I've learned how to do things alone and I really enjoy it. I can't tell you how well I sleep at night knowing that NO ONE is cheating on me or lying to me or going to stand me up at the last minute! I have not had the best time when dating. And I guess it's not for everyone. But I can honestly say for the first time in years.....I DON'T CARE :) I really honestly feel like I can't be tied down. To say the word dating is like blah in my ears! Lol!

I was once told by an ex that I had unrealistic expectations of men and that I expected them to be like the men in my romance books. I answered him back by saying....Well not everyone is a cheap asshole like you. And further more if I expected men to be like the ones in my book then they'd all be 200 year old Vampires, lol!! He didn't find the humor in that....Wonder why?? Blah!!

I don't have unrealistic expectations for men because frankly I have no expectations at all. I'm tired of waiting and wishing and wondering what's wrong with me. After all this time I know I'm wonderful just as I am :) I'm beautiful, smart and sweet. No one deserves me as I see it. Stand back while I toot my own horn, lol! If a man doesn't like me because I'm too fat, or too short, or too bubbly, or too talkative, or god forbid too old, it HIS LOSS! Frankly I'm tired of it all.

Dating is just another form of rejection that no one needs. Online dating is the devil! It's just another form of rejection but instead of it being in public it's in the comfort of your own home in your jammies. How sad is that? But how else does someone meet another person?? Oh that's right I forgot....People don't meet anymore they just exchange texts and maybe one day you may meet. And then figure out that you've both been lying the whole time.

I'm sure to some that this may sound a bit bitchy, then don't read my crap! Lol. I'm speaking up like you all know I do. It's what makes me.....Well ME! I'm more awesome (yeah that word needs to make the rounds again lol) than most :)

Toot!! Toot!!

SCARLETT'S BLOG

Hello Humans.....How is everyone today? For me it's another lazy Sunday. Mama has been up since 7 a.m. She is like a ball of energy on this cold lazy morning! She got up and did her workout, I watched sweat pour down her as she ran around looking like an idiot. I keep that to myself because well....I'm a cat and I think it's pointless. But it really seems to make Mama happy. If you thought Mama was perky before you should see here after 30 minutes of Turbo Jam.

Now Mama credits Turbo Jam to the weight loss she's been having and I for one am so proud of her. She's been working her butt off. Literally! Ha ha!! I did help a bit today as Mama made some breakfast. She made some banana nut muffins. I guess this will be a regular Sunday thing with us when it's cold. I sat in the kitchen and supervised. It's what I do best :) and when Mama had the oven door open I went and sat under it. Not a warmer seat in the house! I watched as Mama went out and cleaned off the car and watched as other silly humans were doing the same. Everyone in the building is on the go today! Not me! I think soon I'll settle in for my mid morning nap. That will be followed by my 2 minute toy play in the living room that will then be followed by my afternoon nap. Yeah....house life is good :)

Tails up humans!!

VERDICT IS IN.....

O.K.!! I did it! I lost weight over a holiday!! And it was over a holiday where all you do is eat for two weeks! Yeah!!!!!!! It's not easy to do such a thing....But I really have to give credit to Turbo Jam. It's my workout Dvd. Well one of my MANY! Lol!! I did a 40 minute workout yesterday that earned me 10 extra points and trust me when I say....I used them all with two helpings of pasta and I didn't feel guilty at all. :)

Now I did make one New Years Resolution.....It was to be fabulous as much as possible. I'm trying to wear lipstick and necklaces to work every day....At least one of them every day! I had forgotten how great you feel just by adding some color to your lips and having something shiny around your neck! It makes your inner beauty come out! Go on try it!!

Other than that....The aerobics and weight loss are not a resolution. See I just need to do that for me! And trust me when I say the closer I get to 35 the harder it is to actually loose weight! But I'm gonna plug away and do the best I can!

Miss Scarlett has been good :) She's all snuggled in right now in bed. She said to me this morning that she likes to sleep in on cold days like this. Although I find that hard to believe since I woke up at 4 a.m. to go the the bathroom and she was up and looking out the window! Lol. I'm more the early to bed early to rise type. And she is the stay up all night type. We do fine though. Even when we both take a nap on a Sunday afternoon on the sofa....And yeah I feel that coming on, LOL!!

This morning I'm headed to the kitchen to make some banana nut muffins. Gotta love that smell! Scarlett will help me....She loves to tinker in the kitchen. Stay warm my loves :)

NEW YEAR NEW ME!

Hello all! I'm never really sure who is reading this....and lately it's been no one since I've been mute! Lol!! The times they are a changing! And this lady is ready for changes!

Resolutions....Sorry I don't make those. But I'm making promises to myself. I will workout! I will be my sexy self again! I will do things for me and to make me feel better! I've already given up on dating and finding "the one". Yeah that ship has sailed. I have to admit that for the past few months I've been happier than I've been in years. If you have no one you are chasing after no one can let you down. And lets face it.....That's really all I've had happen in my life with men. Lots and lots of let downs. NO MORE!!

I've been cooking up a storm lately and with the new Points Plus thing going on at Weight Watchers I'm hoping I'll see results! The fact that most of your fruits and veggies are now free in points is a big PLUS!! I've also dug out all my workout dvd's and dusted them off. It's time to get real people! When the weather is nice in the spring I hope to make it back out to the track. And perhaps get my jog on! Lol!! In these winter months I'll keep it inside and do Yoga Booty Ballet and Kickboxing!

And I'm gonna get my movie self on! Lol! Today we are headed to the movies. Last week I went and saw the Tourist. I loved it! Johnny Depp and Angelina Jolie....Yeah for me! Today it's Black Swan. I've heard lots about it. And I'm gonna be the judge today! Lol! I'm also gearing up for this years Oscar party. Yeah, I'm that girl! Lol! I'm the host est with the most est!

Well everyone....Be well, Live well, and take care of yourselves. Who else can you count on? Ha ha!

Love,

Melly

DATING.....

Why is it necessary? Oh yeah so one can feel complete and have a husband and family. Gee I wonder if that will ever happen for me. Any more dating seems so ruff. It's not a sport for the faint of heart. In fact I've really not done it for a while.

It seems like the older I get the harder it is to find a good man. Are there really any out there? I hate to say I'm about to give up hope but damn!! Seriously!! And if I do by chance end up with a good one I'm totally freaked the hell out that I'll screw up something! I hate to admit it but I've come to the point in my life where I'd like to actually settle down and have that wonderful life. But that plan isn't really happening....AT ALL, lol. See in order to have that you have to be with someone you can trust and someone that will love you back.

I have recently met a nice guy that for the first time in a VERY long time I was excited and nervous to meet. Which can only mean bad news for my heart. I have a wonderful girlfriend who has told me to be positive. And I'm trying that. I like to say things like he'll call. When he gets the chance. And I think it was super sweet of him to show up and spend time with me on a day that he was having a really bad day. And for a couple of hours I like to think I made him smile. But that's what I do I'm Suzie Sunshine! Lol.

Frankly I'm terrified in general with any man anymore for fear of being hurt so badly again. I wish I could say that it gets easier through time but really all it does is burn you deeper till you can't recall what love ever was. Romance is nonexistent. Love....yeah I've felt it before. My girlfriend (who I like to call the wise one, lol) has said that I need to feel sexy to be sexy and that men will feed off that. I agree with her but I've pretty much felt like a total looser the past few months. Especially when one of my ex-boyfriends dumped me cuz i was "too good of a person". How on earth is that possible?

The only good thing I have to say about this year is that thank God I only had one boyfriend smash my heart up this year. Since when did relationship become a four letter word? I know that there has to be one guy out there that is worthy and sweet and treats me just as well as i treat him. I deserve someone great. I do dammit! :)

SCRATCHING MY HEAD....

WARNING......NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART, I'M CUSSING AND PISSED IN HERE. JUST TO LET YOU KNOW.

Let me start this by saying...Thanks to the powers that be by the mighty facebook I've found one of my ex boyfriends....yeah and I'm pretty much disgusted! His wife and I share a common friend...be it a radio station but all the same that is how I saw his asshole face pop up on my screen! You all know me....of course I'm gonna dig! And I saw that they were married in Jan. of 09. That means that Ken the Asshole was married ten days after he dumped me! ARE YOU KIDDING ME???????????? I am at a total loss for words. Had I known I was up against that I'd never of waisted tears on that ASSHOLE! This totally breaks all the hope I've ever had in finding true love. It just isn't out there is it?

Another guy I went out with on one real date and then we hung out one other time tried to pressure me into having sex with him. When I told him that I didn't think that was smart because we'd not even kissed yet, his response was....the time hadn't presented itself to kiss me....Oh but it had presented itself for me to get naked and lay down with him? WHAT THE HELL?????? Now a few weeks later he's got a girlfriend....SERIOUSLY??

What is wrong with me? Why do men not want a nice, wonderful, loyal, sweetheart like me? I've been dumped for so many reasons. And each time it stings a bit more. I just don't get it. I know I'm not desperate.....I'm a good person. So why on earth is it so hard for a good man to actually want me? What did I ever do? I'm 34, I'm not sure if I'll ever have children. I'm not sure I'll ever be married and have that "wonderful" life. I honestly thought that by now I'd be settled down and be on my way to having it all. But all I see is everyone else getting and having it all. And me....Yeah. Pity Party Table of 1. Story of my life.

No wonder Ken didn't spend any time with me when he got back from Iraq....HE WAS GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How stupid am I? And that was a year ago he took the plunge. I even saw her with him once at a resturant....man....I should of approached him like I'd thought....But I was the bigger person. Man I'm an idiot!

SCARLETT'S BLOG

Hello humans....Oh my what a day. We had some stuff happen here in the apartment. Yesterday the loud people next door had a clogged drain in the bathroom. And well, it backed up the tub here in our place and Mama was not happy when she got home and got that message I'll tell ya! There was this smelly brown gooey stuff that came up in our tub and it was just nasty as can be! Mama said that they couldn't fix it till today.

Well we know what that means right humans....I had to be locked up in the bedroom! And all our kitchen stuff was put in the living room and dining room. Mama was cussing up a storm last night too. So today while I was locked up we got new pipes and the tub is working and we got new cabinets put in....well the same ones but i think a bit up dated. I'm gonna go inspect here soon.

Normally I'm pretty upset when I get locked up but I have to say all in all today I was ok in the bedroom. Mama always brings in my litter and food and I have to say it was a nice day to nap. no pesky birds chirping and keeping me awake! And it's pretty nice when i get to wake up hop off the bed and go right to my food dish....I feel like royalty! Lol!

Well humans, I need to make my rounds and make sure that the handyman and plumber did all the work well! Inspection Kitty to the rescue!

JUDGEMENT DAY....

Yesterday was judgement day for this heifer. Yeah I rejoined Weight Watchers. And I really wasn't happy with the number on the scale. But I now have my new goals in front of my face and I really have to stick with the program. I've let myself go for so long in so many ways.

I got allot out of the meeting and was impressed by the amount of actual overweight women there. I was in Weight Watchers a few years back and I know it works I'm ready to remake myself yet again! In fact when I went to the store later in the day I got all the healthy things I used to eat and I forgot how much those things cost! Yikes!! But I found some really cool things! Who knew they had bagel thins. I'm sure everyone on here has seen them because I tend to "new things" way after other people! Lol. But bagel thins are like someone took a bagel and cut the very top and very bottom off and put them in a bag. And they are only 2 points compared to a regular bagel which can be 6 points for more. Yeah...see what I'm sayin?

Then yesterday my cousin and I went walking on the high school track. I really do like walking there. It's a nice track. And after we went a mile my legs didn't kill me like when we go walking around town. And today my legs aren't hurting like before. So....yeah mushy track :)

It's a process to loose weight but I've done it before a few years ago. I just have to put my mind to it and I know I can do it again. Conditioning is what i gotta do.

Think Thin :)

BEWARE OF ANITA.....

Ok. So I was minding my own business tonight at the laundry mat when in walked....Anita. Oh she was so cute with her natural curly hair and her bouncy happy self...Until I had to walk by her and check on the clothes in my dryer. And Anita tried to rip my head off! Ok, before you all freak out Anita is a dog....Lol. A little yip per of a dog. She is a poodle. And if you ask me the most worthless kind of dog!

She was little and had bows in her ears....omg the things people do to their animals. I couldn't tell as she was trying to be super vicious with me if her nails were painted but I'm assuming they were since she seemed to be a bit of a diva dog. And her owner (a older German lady) was trying to settle her down in broken English. Oh Anita...Be nice, oh Anita....Don't be so loud, oh Anita....Shhhh (something in German). Lol. I wondered....could Anita tell I'm a cat person?

I got to thinking....I'm an animal person in general. Most cats and dogs like me. Can you blame them I'm a wonderful person to be around. But Diva Anita....She's another story all together. Mom says it's the owner not the dog. As I recalled my memories with her of my parents dog Candy. She was a poodle. Who has been told to me that when I came home from the hospital as a baby Candy was not fond of me at all and my father tells me that she growled at me. But as time went on I became pretty attached to that little dog. And for a poodle she was a good dog...Till she went in the cattle lot and ate poop. Yeah....She loved to do that and then run into the house....Oh Mom HATED that! Lol.

But this dog today....Anita....Yikes!! Watcher of the dryers! She means business in the Mat! Ha ha! I guess I'm just not a lover of nonsocial dogs. I'm pretty sure though that Miss Scarlett could take her. With just one swing she'd knock Anita's bows right out of her ears! Lol!! God little dogs are so possessive of their humans! Vicious devil dog!!

I had to laugh though when Anita got herself so worked up that she started coughing....Yeah Anita! Take it like a woman! Karma Anita Karma! Lol. Maybe she just got some dryer lint stuck on her tongue....Who knows! Lol. Guess there is never a dull moment at the laundry mat.

DUST OFF THE COBWEBS....

Ok, so I've taken the summer off from blogging and I've just been having me time. In fact I've taken the past five, count them five months off of dating and men and I really have to say that after the past five years these past five months have been wonderful :)

I've taken this time to put me first (which if you ask me I should of done a long time ago). I've come to the conclusion that I'm ok just as I am. For the longest time I thought everything was my fault in everything I did. And that I must be the common factor in all my relationships failing. And I was in a very dark place for a bit emotionally and in matters of the heart. But I took a step back and looked at all of that and came to the conclusion that I've been dating the same kind of man for five years. All different shapes and sizes and ages. But in the end...the same man. Unattached, unable to commit and the minute he feels trapped by the "B word" (boyfriend) he bolts. So I gave it all up and I poured time into me instead of pouring all my time and energy into trying to figure out what I can do to make someone else happy.

I finally realized I'm the one that matters. ME!!!!!! I've taken this time and I've had a wonderful summer of ME! Lol!! I went swimming and got a nice tan. I have been working out and trying to get back on track with Weight Watchers. I've taken in countless movies (that I wanted to see). I've read books and taken naps. It all may sound really trivial and silly to some but it has made me happy. And, helped my heart to heal. Sure I have my days where i curse all men and wish that they would just vanish off the face of the earth....I am after all a woman! Lol!! But for the most I just say....blah to you mister! Ha ha!

I've begun reading Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. Now single ladies....take heed and read! it's wonderful for me at this time in my life because it is a story of a woman in her 30's searching for what makes her whole again. And, well.....I'm in that search. That wonderful search of what makes me happy. And I can honestly say I'm the most peaceful right now with my inner self. If that makes sense to any of you :)

The trip I took to Branson this summer was wonderful and it got me away and let me cut loose and laugh and be happy. It's amazing how a mini holiday can do that for someone :) I even got to hit a concert this summer. And am looking forward to a couple of other concerts this fall. Which isn't like me at all. But I'm 34....so it's my time!

Scarlett has been busy too. She's had a full summer of taking care of Mama. She said just the other day she is ready for fall and all that brings. I think she's just ready for football, LOL!!

Take care all and be sure to stay tuned to us.....

SWEET FREEDOM!!

Well hello all! Oh my it's been a while since I've blogged. So much has been going on that I've just been too busy. Which is a nice change. First I should start by saying that this is a new improved Melanie. I'm getting back to me and putting me first. Which I've not done in sometime because I've been in relationships and I somehow lost focus on me.

I've gotten back into working out every day. Yes I said every day! Sometimes twice a day. And I'm feeling great! A bit sore from time to time but great all the same! LOL. I've been reading and getting to the movies. I've also been in the pool doing laps and getting my summer tan. All of this I'm doing man less and I have to say for the first time in almost 5 years I'm really happy. I'm not worried about all the things that come with men. Like is he cheating on me, is he lying to me, where is he at, why does he only have time for me one day a week? Men have been nothing but a mess for me.

I've only truly been in love once and it messed me up so much that I just don't think I have it in me anymore. Other than that one time....the rest of my relationships have been nothing but heartache and headaches. I'm finally back to me. And I feel so free and happy.

It's not that I've been in controlling relationships or anything like that it's that I've been in so many one sided things that I lost balance of it all. I give and give and give and men take. They have never really cared for me as a person, mostly I'm just a person who was there to have fun with for a while and then when things start to get serious they just dump you. Well I believe I'm worth sooooo much more than that.

As for those who say I've just not found my one yet. Well there have been over 40 in my life the past 5 years. Now don't judge me! The over 40 include, one date disasters, boyfriends, and guys that you hangout with once or twice and decide....nahhh not for me. That's a lot of idiots and frankly this girl is tired of dating and the game and all that goes with it. My get up and go when it comes to love has got up and went! I told my Mom the other night on my tombstone it will read....here lies Melanie, she lived alone and she died alone. And my Mom said NO! It will read....here lies Melanie....she's smarter than a man. LOL. Gotta love your Mom huh?

Out of 4o some odd men I never found the one that could prove that he actually gave a damn about me. Jr. he was a bit of an exception. But that ship has sailed. And in the end, he ended up like the others, confused as to what he wanted and scared to move forward. So he ran away. And when he wanted to come back I pushed him away. Because frankly if a man can't stand a bit of heat and runs.....he'll run again. I'm not stupid.

Me I'll be fine. I always am.

SCARLETT'S BLOG

Hello humans! Are you staying cool? Mama is all excited because she saw people in the pool today and she is busting to get out there and swim. We've had quite a week here in the house....people are moving out left and right in the complex and I've been keeping my watch on! Moving out, moving in, moving around!

They have come by lately and cleaned the carpets here and for that I had to be locked up in the bathroom all morning! Mama knows I'm not a fan of that, sure she tries to make it easy on me by putting my pillow in there and my water and food, she seems to think all I'm gonna do is nap....wait.....I kind of did, lol!! Then another day i had to be locked up in the bedroom because they were coming to check filters and all that jazz. It's not so bad being locked in the bedroom but I prefer to go in there on my own. Instead of Mama being all sneaky! Lol.

Mama has been so happy lately, I think this "me" time is very good for her. She has been happy and smiling all the time. I'm happy when Mama's happy. We are really ready for summer! Have a wonderful Memorial Day Weekend all!!

SCARLETT'S BLOG

Hello to all humans! I'm back on the blog spot! Mama and I have been so busy and I've been a good girl and taking care of Mama as best a four footer can :) Mama has had some kind of light appear around her. It seems to be a happy heart. She has told me of her plans. Those would be the fact that she has taken her life back and she has made some changes.

Now Mama has decided to not date at all.....odd behavior I know but Mama says it's her "me" time and I'm just happy I get to have that "me" time with her. I've been telling her for years to just dump the men and enjoy life and that seems to be just what she's doing. We've been snuggling a lot and reading a bit. Mama got herself some new smelly stuff she likes to put on when she goes out and goes to work, she also got some new finger paints. It always makes her finger tips look funny! And frankly the smell makes my nose turn up! But it really seems to make Mama happy. And I'm all for anything that makes Mama smile. It's been hot out this weekend and Mama finally turned on the A.C. Yippee!

Today I got to have my favorite thing....I got a brushing! I love the feel of the brush on my fur and skin! It's like a nice massage! I'm always a bit miffed when Mama stops but I guess her arm gets tired or something like that. Memorial weekend seems to be coming up and Mama says we are gonna relax and hangout. Yeah! I need lots of snuggle time :)

Other than that I've just been keeping an eye on the complex. People are moving out and in lots of business going on. And I've been watching it all. Sure I keep Mama posted as best I can. Sometimes I wish she spoke Kitty better! Oh well.....I need to go humans....Time for my bath :)

TIRED....

Wow, never thought I'd say it....but this chick is out of the game! I've never been so over dating and men in my life. What's it all for anyway? All you get is a big headache and a massive heartache. Overrated is what I call it! I've got nothing to show for the years of dating except a over priced tooth brush (which I'd never bought on my own and i have to say I love it) and an empty vase that i once got a flower in. After years of dating that's it? That's all I get? What a jip!

Frankly I just don't have the steam in me. Dating is more than ruff it should be illegal! It causes too much pain and suffering. And you have not one thing to show for it but a bunch of walls that get bigger and bigger as you get older. No one wants a 34 year old woman who is on the chunky side of life. I'm too old to have children and too young to be a spinster. So I'm the cat lady. Which is something i don't fear because I'm a wonderful cat Mama.

Justin wants to be friends, ok. Friendship I can deal with. Emotions and feelings....nope I just can't deal with that. I'm becoming a unfeeling bitch. And it's due time! My entire life I've done for others, I've listened to their problems, I've supported them, I've been the friend, I've been the dependable one. I've been the one they tell it all to and then they run off with someone else. Well no more! Now it's all about me and how I feel and what I want! I'm sick of the old....Melanie is nice and all but she's not the one for me.

Melanie is about to take her life back and become the best she's ever been.

WOULDN'T YOU KNOW IT....

Yeah so for the masses....I've officially been dumped. Seems to be that I'm too much of a good person. I was dumped because I'm too bubbly and I talk too much. He says we are too different because he's so laid back and mellow. This is another man who has dumped me because I'm too good of a person. He claims he has no feelings for me what so ever. Good to know, esp. since he seemed to be quite interested at the get go. Then three months in.....we aren't a good fit and he doesn't see anything long term happening with us. Good to know esp. since not that long ago he was planning on spending the summer with me. This is his loss and he has no clue what he's given up.

WHY IS IT.....

Why is it that dating is so tuff? Why is it that men don't seem to be interested in a nice girl? Why is it that you have to be so guarded? Why is it that you can't fully open up to someone for fear that they will dump you if you are too you?

These are some of the many things floating through my head. Why does it all have to be so damn complicated? Why can't it just be....I like you, you like me, lets go out? I was never a girl that guys dated in high school and college because I was too fat. Yeah lets face it...guys don't like big girls. then i got out and I was every ones friend, and that sucks even more. Now in my late 20's and 30's I'm finally meeting men that like curvy girls and all I get is the runaround!! I get the you're sooo wonderful but I just can't be with you. What the hell is that??

My boyfriend now....I really like him. But he's guarded, as am I. But most of the time I just don't understand. Why can't we just spend time together? We've talked about all kinds of things, we've been together for about three months. So why do i always feel like I'm doing something wrong? Feeling something wrong? I really like him and I don't want to scare him off so I keep allot of things in. For fear if I told him how much I liked him he'd run off to the hills.

Why can't it just be simple. Since when is it that men don't like a good girl? What is the issue here? I'm not dramatic, I'm low maintenance, I can cook, I'm affectionate, I'm not demanding, I'm fun as hell.

Don't get me wrong, my boyfriend and I have so much fun together. He makes me laugh like I've never laughed before. I guess I just don't understand why he feels he's no good for me. Why is it so hard to just be with me?

WHAT ON EARTH HAVE I BEEN UP TO?

Ok, so as we have seen I've been a lazy goose and I've not posted any blogs and neither has Scarlett. She has been so busy keeping an eye on everyone in the building lately and playing hostess that she has had no time at all to blog.

I've been stressed out at work and life was sucking for a few days. But like those big ass thunderstorms last week that has passed and I'm feeling much better emotionally. Scarlett and I have started working out again, not as much as we should but hey every little bit counts right? She and I have also started reading a new book in the Nice Girls series. So that has kept us busy at night too!

On Thursday, Scarlett was busy keeping tabs on the guy that lived next door (he's moved out) and she was sitting in the screen door with her eyes peeled on him at all times! And she would look every direction he'd go. I'm not sure if in her mind it was like "look Mama! It's an action movie!" or what but it sure was funny to watch her expressions with every load he took by the front door! She also had a bit of a heart attack last week when the ambulance went by our complex with it's lights and sirens going....she got so freaked out that she hid behind me and popped her head out from behind my legs with her Mr. Ferley eyes going wild!

Last week my parents came down and took me out for a nice birthday dinner and mom and dad bought me a new house plant. I sure do like having something green in the house. It adds some nice character to a room! I've named her Betsy and I think Scarlett would love to nip at the leaves but I've got it out of sight out of mind....I hope :)

Other than that things have been pretty good. I am going to a rock concert this week and I'll be busy as all get out at work. Thank god people still need medical help! It's one of the few places to work where there are actual jobs! Well people I hope you have enjoyed the beginning of May as much as I have! Let's have a wonderful spring!!

OMG....DISHES!!

Ok, so for those of you who know me well you know how I can get about cleaning and about dishes in particular! Well anal clean Melanie has met her boyfriend and his son and his brother! Lol! Three men living together....need I say more? I let it go as long as I could but last night I tackled the dishes!! And oh how I felt better! I've been eyeing a pan over there that has sat on the stove for way too long and last night my inner anal clean freak won! Lol!! Justin has told me before that he's not going to let me clean is house, but damn, I'm just gonna do it! I understand that with a child it's hard sometimes and he's busy with work and he's been very tired lately, so I just did it on my own! And I told him last night that I'm just going to do dishes twice a week! And I hear from the living room his brother go...."I don't have a problem with that!" I told Justin he has gained a girlfriend and his brother has gained a maid! Ha ha!

Dishes are a bit of a pet peeve for me. They gotta be done! When I sat down last night with the guys to watch a movie I had accomplished just that! All dishes in the house were done! Koby at one point goes "Melanie, you can leave those dishes for dad to do later, you can come play a game with me now" insert cute five year old smile here. And I told him, "well we can play in a little bit, I'm going to do dishes now so dad can enjoy his day tomorrow." It's little things like that that I think are important. I wanted to help and I did. It may of been just dishes but I made Justin's day a bit better just by doing that simple thing.

I'm not as bad as Monk, but I do like my dishes clean and put away. Or at least clean and in the rack! Lol, that's where most of mine are!

Another thing that surprised me, I took over the movie All About Steve (one of my favorites) and we watched it and the guys really seemed to like it! They actually laughed! So score one for the lady! Well I guess I should get my butt in gear! I've got some dish cloths to make for a wedding present!

Take care my darlings :)

HELLO ALL!

So much has been happening in my little world. Walking is taking over and bowling is almost over. I've finished another book series, that makes the third book series I've finished and that makes me pretty happy! Since reading and me have our times, lol. I've got to say the Erin McCarthy books were a super fun read! Lots of laughing and cold showers were had! Ha ha! The new series I've started is called the Nice Girls books, so far they are a fun read, I've just had no time to read. Either I'm out and about or staying up too late or sleeping! Lol!! Soon it will be pool weather and I love to read while at the pool!

Scarlett is doing just fine! The other day she got a bit too close to the outside for my taste. She got a yelling and a foot to the nose! And she knew she had done wrong! No worries people, she and I made up real quick and she is laying in the sunlight as we speak watching the squirrels outside!

I trust everyone had a wonderful Easter weekend!! I had a good time catching up with family and spending time with my parents and a wonderful corgi "Sister". It's starting to be flea and tick season, so make sure to put medicine on you're four footers! Lizzy can't sleep with me now till fall. I heard her walking around last night on the hard wood floors in my bedroom and I heard her go down the stairs to my dad. Ticks do NOT belong in my bed! No matter how much I love that little dog!

Well I need to be getting on with my day! Have a lovely day and enjoy the rest of it!

XOXO

SCARLETT'S BLOG

Happy Saturday humans! So it is a wet one out there today. Mama has been to mail out bills and off to the store today. She is getting lil smokies ready as we speak for the game. It's been March Madness all over the place here. Ever since KSU got in to the playoffs! Mama and Justin have been watching lots of basketball and that means I have too. I mostly nap during it unless it's too stressful for Mama. Like the other night when it went into two overtimes....Mama couldn't even stay in the room with me she kept going off in the kitchen or bathroom because she said she just couldn't watch with how close it was. Then after the game when they won we were in the bedroom getting ready to snuggle in for the night and we could hear people chanting and yelling and there were fireworks going off and all. What a crazy night! Mama says it's the first time in 22 years that KSU has advanced like this. Wow!

Now let me tell you about a little boy I've met this week. His name is Koby and he is Justin's son. He is a nice kid, esp. when he drops his food on the floor! I really liked that part of our first meeting. He kept to himself, but I sure did check him out....from afar at first and then I got up the courage to go and sniff him. He smells of child, which isn't something I'm really used to, but he didn't chase me or pull my fur so I'm ok with him! And I have to say I love to see the smile that Mama gets when she's around Justin. And he is good to me too! He likes to talk to me and ask me how I'm doing. Awww. I like humans who know I'm in the room!

Well I need to get on my way here, Mama has just painted her nails purple and the smell is awful! Lol!! Keep dry humans!