MY HOW TIME HAS PASSED....

OK, so I've been more than a little bummy about getting blogs done. And I'd like to say that it's been because I'm SOOOOO busy, lol! Well it's because I'm so lazy. ;) I've been pretty very lazy, I won't deny that at all!

I feel that for the first time in a very long time I'm O.K. I've had lots of ups and downs these past few years. All in the heart department. And after the 100th time (ok more like 30th time) you get tired of picking yourself up and dusting yourself off and going back out there. I honestly just don't have the umph to do it anymore. Men have sucked the breath out of me when it comes to falling in love and maybe one day living happily ever after. In my opinion if that is what you are waiting for ladies then I suggest that you get a nice book and a comfy chair to sit in because it's not going to happen.

I'm 35, it doesn't get better. I've finally come to the realization that love and marriage is not in the books for me and I'm totally OK with that. I'm not fooling myself. I'm not getting any younger (although the men seem to be acting more like teenagers than real men). And the men lets just touch on that for a moment. None of them know what they want, or what they feel and all they can commit to is a text message. What the hell is that about??

Call me old fashioned but damn, what is wrong with people nowadays?? We are growing up with a generation that can't even communicate! No one can call they have to text, no one can have a date they want to hangout, no one can commit because they are afraid. So it's a generation of idiots growing up around us. Put all the crap away and just be real for a moment! Why is it wrong to go out and get to know someone? Why is everyone so quick to give a phone number out or their address? Why can't you go to dinner and talk for ever and get to know each other? Why does it have to go from text to sex? And look at the roll models for kids today....I guess who can you blame? We are a generation of idiots! That's my frank opinion.

I guess in a way some people may think that I waisted my time. I'm not married, I have no children and what have i done with my life? Well I worked my ass off. And thanks to this lovely economy I have pretty much nothing to show for it. Watch out here sits a perfectly good 35 year old woman all by herself, lol! The up note for that is the fact that I can do what i want when I want and if I want to drink a bottle of wine in the dark I can do so....HA HA!!

There was a short period of time in my life where I though things would be quite different and then I got dumped. From all my years of dating I have battle scars (mainly on my heart) and I have learned the hard lesson that you can truly trust no one but yourself.

For the first time in a very long time I'm really O.K. I've been single for over a year now and I've learned how to do things alone and I really enjoy it. I can't tell you how well I sleep at night knowing that NO ONE is cheating on me or lying to me or going to stand me up at the last minute! I have not had the best time when dating. And I guess it's not for everyone. But I can honestly say for the first time in years.....I DON'T CARE :) I really honestly feel like I can't be tied down. To say the word dating is like blah in my ears! Lol!

I was once told by an ex that I had unrealistic expectations of men and that I expected them to be like the men in my romance books. I answered him back by saying....Well not everyone is a cheap asshole like you. And further more if I expected men to be like the ones in my book then they'd all be 200 year old Vampires, lol!! He didn't find the humor in that....Wonder why?? Blah!!

I don't have unrealistic expectations for men because frankly I have no expectations at all. I'm tired of waiting and wishing and wondering what's wrong with me. After all this time I know I'm wonderful just as I am :) I'm beautiful, smart and sweet. No one deserves me as I see it. Stand back while I toot my own horn, lol! If a man doesn't like me because I'm too fat, or too short, or too bubbly, or too talkative, or god forbid too old, it HIS LOSS! Frankly I'm tired of it all.

Dating is just another form of rejection that no one needs. Online dating is the devil! It's just another form of rejection but instead of it being in public it's in the comfort of your own home in your jammies. How sad is that? But how else does someone meet another person?? Oh that's right I forgot....People don't meet anymore they just exchange texts and maybe one day you may meet. And then figure out that you've both been lying the whole time.

I'm sure to some that this may sound a bit bitchy, then don't read my crap! Lol. I'm speaking up like you all know I do. It's what makes me.....Well ME! I'm more awesome (yeah that word needs to make the rounds again lol) than most :)

Toot!! Toot!!

SCARLETT'S BLOG

Hello Humans.....How is everyone today? For me it's another lazy Sunday. Mama has been up since 7 a.m. She is like a ball of energy on this cold lazy morning! She got up and did her workout, I watched sweat pour down her as she ran around looking like an idiot. I keep that to myself because well....I'm a cat and I think it's pointless. But it really seems to make Mama happy. If you thought Mama was perky before you should see here after 30 minutes of Turbo Jam.

Now Mama credits Turbo Jam to the weight loss she's been having and I for one am so proud of her. She's been working her butt off. Literally! Ha ha!! I did help a bit today as Mama made some breakfast. She made some banana nut muffins. I guess this will be a regular Sunday thing with us when it's cold. I sat in the kitchen and supervised. It's what I do best :) and when Mama had the oven door open I went and sat under it. Not a warmer seat in the house! I watched as Mama went out and cleaned off the car and watched as other silly humans were doing the same. Everyone in the building is on the go today! Not me! I think soon I'll settle in for my mid morning nap. That will be followed by my 2 minute toy play in the living room that will then be followed by my afternoon nap. Yeah....house life is good :)

Tails up humans!!

VERDICT IS IN.....

O.K.!! I did it! I lost weight over a holiday!! And it was over a holiday where all you do is eat for two weeks! Yeah!!!!!!! It's not easy to do such a thing....But I really have to give credit to Turbo Jam. It's my workout Dvd. Well one of my MANY! Lol!! I did a 40 minute workout yesterday that earned me 10 extra points and trust me when I say....I used them all with two helpings of pasta and I didn't feel guilty at all. :)

Now I did make one New Years Resolution.....It was to be fabulous as much as possible. I'm trying to wear lipstick and necklaces to work every day....At least one of them every day! I had forgotten how great you feel just by adding some color to your lips and having something shiny around your neck! It makes your inner beauty come out! Go on try it!!

Other than that....The aerobics and weight loss are not a resolution. See I just need to do that for me! And trust me when I say the closer I get to 35 the harder it is to actually loose weight! But I'm gonna plug away and do the best I can!

Miss Scarlett has been good :) She's all snuggled in right now in bed. She said to me this morning that she likes to sleep in on cold days like this. Although I find that hard to believe since I woke up at 4 a.m. to go the the bathroom and she was up and looking out the window! Lol. I'm more the early to bed early to rise type. And she is the stay up all night type. We do fine though. Even when we both take a nap on a Sunday afternoon on the sofa....And yeah I feel that coming on, LOL!!

This morning I'm headed to the kitchen to make some banana nut muffins. Gotta love that smell! Scarlett will help me....She loves to tinker in the kitchen. Stay warm my loves :)

NEW YEAR NEW ME!

Hello all! I'm never really sure who is reading this....and lately it's been no one since I've been mute! Lol!! The times they are a changing! And this lady is ready for changes!

Resolutions....Sorry I don't make those. But I'm making promises to myself. I will workout! I will be my sexy self again! I will do things for me and to make me feel better! I've already given up on dating and finding "the one". Yeah that ship has sailed. I have to admit that for the past few months I've been happier than I've been in years. If you have no one you are chasing after no one can let you down. And lets face it.....That's really all I've had happen in my life with men. Lots and lots of let downs. NO MORE!!

I've been cooking up a storm lately and with the new Points Plus thing going on at Weight Watchers I'm hoping I'll see results! The fact that most of your fruits and veggies are now free in points is a big PLUS!! I've also dug out all my workout dvd's and dusted them off. It's time to get real people! When the weather is nice in the spring I hope to make it back out to the track. And perhaps get my jog on! Lol!! In these winter months I'll keep it inside and do Yoga Booty Ballet and Kickboxing!

And I'm gonna get my movie self on! Lol! Today we are headed to the movies. Last week I went and saw the Tourist. I loved it! Johnny Depp and Angelina Jolie....Yeah for me! Today it's Black Swan. I've heard lots about it. And I'm gonna be the judge today! Lol! I'm also gearing up for this years Oscar party. Yeah, I'm that girl! Lol! I'm the host est with the most est!

Well everyone....Be well, Live well, and take care of yourselves. Who else can you count on? Ha ha!

Love,

Melly

DATING.....

Why is it necessary? Oh yeah so one can feel complete and have a husband and family. Gee I wonder if that will ever happen for me. Any more dating seems so ruff. It's not a sport for the faint of heart. In fact I've really not done it for a while.

It seems like the older I get the harder it is to find a good man. Are there really any out there? I hate to say I'm about to give up hope but damn!! Seriously!! And if I do by chance end up with a good one I'm totally freaked the hell out that I'll screw up something! I hate to admit it but I've come to the point in my life where I'd like to actually settle down and have that wonderful life. But that plan isn't really happening....AT ALL, lol. See in order to have that you have to be with someone you can trust and someone that will love you back.

I have recently met a nice guy that for the first time in a VERY long time I was excited and nervous to meet. Which can only mean bad news for my heart. I have a wonderful girlfriend who has told me to be positive. And I'm trying that. I like to say things like he'll call. When he gets the chance. And I think it was super sweet of him to show up and spend time with me on a day that he was having a really bad day. And for a couple of hours I like to think I made him smile. But that's what I do I'm Suzie Sunshine! Lol.

Frankly I'm terrified in general with any man anymore for fear of being hurt so badly again. I wish I could say that it gets easier through time but really all it does is burn you deeper till you can't recall what love ever was. Romance is nonexistent. Love....yeah I've felt it before. My girlfriend (who I like to call the wise one, lol) has said that I need to feel sexy to be sexy and that men will feed off that. I agree with her but I've pretty much felt like a total looser the past few months. Especially when one of my ex-boyfriends dumped me cuz i was "too good of a person". How on earth is that possible?

The only good thing I have to say about this year is that thank God I only had one boyfriend smash my heart up this year. Since when did relationship become a four letter word? I know that there has to be one guy out there that is worthy and sweet and treats me just as well as i treat him. I deserve someone great. I do dammit! :)

SCRATCHING MY HEAD....

WARNING......NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART, I'M CUSSING AND PISSED IN HERE. JUST TO LET YOU KNOW.

Let me start this by saying...Thanks to the powers that be by the mighty facebook I've found one of my ex boyfriends....yeah and I'm pretty much disgusted! His wife and I share a common friend...be it a radio station but all the same that is how I saw his asshole face pop up on my screen! You all know me....of course I'm gonna dig! And I saw that they were married in Jan. of 09. That means that Ken the Asshole was married ten days after he dumped me! ARE YOU KIDDING ME???????????? I am at a total loss for words. Had I known I was up against that I'd never of waisted tears on that ASSHOLE! This totally breaks all the hope I've ever had in finding true love. It just isn't out there is it?

Another guy I went out with on one real date and then we hung out one other time tried to pressure me into having sex with him. When I told him that I didn't think that was smart because we'd not even kissed yet, his response was....the time hadn't presented itself to kiss me....Oh but it had presented itself for me to get naked and lay down with him? WHAT THE HELL?????? Now a few weeks later he's got a girlfriend....SERIOUSLY??

What is wrong with me? Why do men not want a nice, wonderful, loyal, sweetheart like me? I've been dumped for so many reasons. And each time it stings a bit more. I just don't get it. I know I'm not desperate.....I'm a good person. So why on earth is it so hard for a good man to actually want me? What did I ever do? I'm 34, I'm not sure if I'll ever have children. I'm not sure I'll ever be married and have that "wonderful" life. I honestly thought that by now I'd be settled down and be on my way to having it all. But all I see is everyone else getting and having it all. And me....Yeah. Pity Party Table of 1. Story of my life.

No wonder Ken didn't spend any time with me when he got back from Iraq....HE WAS GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How stupid am I? And that was a year ago he took the plunge. I even saw her with him once at a resturant....man....I should of approached him like I'd thought....But I was the bigger person. Man I'm an idiot!

SCARLETT'S BLOG

Hello humans....Oh my what a day. We had some stuff happen here in the apartment. Yesterday the loud people next door had a clogged drain in the bathroom. And well, it backed up the tub here in our place and Mama was not happy when she got home and got that message I'll tell ya! There was this smelly brown gooey stuff that came up in our tub and it was just nasty as can be! Mama said that they couldn't fix it till today.

Well we know what that means right humans....I had to be locked up in the bedroom! And all our kitchen stuff was put in the living room and dining room. Mama was cussing up a storm last night too. So today while I was locked up we got new pipes and the tub is working and we got new cabinets put in....well the same ones but i think a bit up dated. I'm gonna go inspect here soon.

Normally I'm pretty upset when I get locked up but I have to say all in all today I was ok in the bedroom. Mama always brings in my litter and food and I have to say it was a nice day to nap. no pesky birds chirping and keeping me awake! And it's pretty nice when i get to wake up hop off the bed and go right to my food dish....I feel like royalty! Lol!

Well humans, I need to make my rounds and make sure that the handyman and plumber did all the work well! Inspection Kitty to the rescue!